this is my bestfriend and I.
her name is Elizabeth Diane Williams. but she goes by: Liz, or Lizzie.
but i love this chick! shes is my main bestfriend. more like my sister, my twin, my other half, and my world. i would not know what to do without her in my life. she helps me with SOO much stuff, it’s ridiculous. i help her with stuff too.
me and her. man, i swear, were just two peas in a pod, partners in crime. [:
we have been friends for four years now. we had our ups and downs, we had our fights, we said i hate you, we said get out of my life, etc.
but were still friends. and im glad i have her in my life.
Alright, so yesterday in one of my school classes, we finished watching a movie called “To Save A Life.” its about bullying, peer pressure, and suicide. and if you want to watch it, and if you have netflix, its on there.
but anywho, that movie really made me think about just everything.
meaning like just because of something I can say to another person can help save their life, and/or from whenever youre bullying people, you make them end their life because you make them feel unwanted, that no one cares for them, etc.
this is why I want to atleast try to stop bullying and suicide prevention.
if youre thinking about killing yourself, please, just call this number. 1-800-SUICIDE. they will help you with what your going through.<3
my life isn’t perfect..i get into A LOT of fights with my family and friends. some nights, i’d rather be by myself, so i shut off my phone, and turn on my ipod…i cry over the smallest things sometimes. there are many days that i get through with forced smiles and fake laughs. sometimes, i try to convince myself that things are okay, when in reality, they’re not….my body isn’t perfect. i don’t walk with my confidence. i’m not ugly, but i’m not beautiful. i don’t look as good in real life, as i do in pictures. there are some nights that i cry myself to sleep because i constantly think that i’m not good enough…..i’m imperfect…..
…but isn’t everyone?
oh, that’s okay darling. i hope you and your skinny little, rich, bikini wearing ”friend” have loads of fun together. but, i hope she knows that there is a scar of my name on your skin…
she shouldn’t even be in the picture!!
you were the one that told me you’d love me forever….not for a week, or a month, or a year…but forever. was i the fool for believeing you…? ..apparently..
you told me that i would always be the girl you wanted to be with…you said that you and i would get plane tickets, and just go….it didn’t matter where…you said we’d just go somewhere to get away from everyone else. turns out….you really bought that other ticket for her instead of me..
sweetheart, i didn’t know what love was…i was scared of the word itself, none the less someone actually saying it to me…but, you made me believe in love…actual love…not that junk you see on movies…actual, bittersweet love. but now that i see you and her together, i now know that love is nothing but a silly little word in your dictionary…
the only thing i don’t understand….is why you lied to me. i was never anything but honest with you….and you lied to me…..about everything…about loving me, caring for me, wanting to be with me, wanting to go places with me…i mean….i thought you were different, my dear…
turns out…you’re no different from everyone else..you’re just like every other lying, cheating, sneaky guy out there.
i kept my word on everything i said…..did you? no.
i didn’t lie to you about anything…..did you? yes.
i’ve been crying over you since january sixteenth…have you been crying over me at all? no.
i really did care about you my dear…..did you? apparently not..
i want to thank you….for proving to me that no guy can be different…no matter how hard they try. i want to thank you for proving to me that love isn’t real. and lastly, i want to thank you for making me feel like i’m the bad person…when clearly, i did nothing wrong. so yeah….thanks for that…
anyways, as i said before….i hope your and your skinny little rich girl have fun. i just hope you one day realize that while you were messing around, the best thing that had ever happend to you…was sitting right here….waiting on you….
i really hope you read this…
and i hope it’s a waist for your time…
just like our whole relationship was to you…
are there really words to describe the way I feel? can a silly crush turn into something THIS real..?
in a thousand places, in a million different ways, you’ve made me feel so special, and i think about you for days..
visualising me and you, in eachothers arms, makes all my worries fade thinking of your charms..
i hope that someday you will look into my eyes, see everything you ever wanted with just beauty..there’s no lies..
love is too quick, to be saying this to you…but if you asked me this right now, i think i’d say i do..♥